So its currently 5:30am, and I’ve been up for about an hour and a half just thinking about a load of different things. I have some music by the fantastic Adrian Von Ziegler playing, and whenever I listen to his music, it reminds me of a few different times in my life. I went into this a little on my own personal account, but I wanted to write a proper post about it, as it is something I think about a lot, and I imagine there are a lot of people who also think about this.
The reason I refer specifically to Adrian’s music is a pretty simple story. When I was about 14, I for some reason was searching for “Gothic music” on YouTube. I was looking for the kinda dark orchestral stuff just because I was kinda getting into it, and it brought up this artist who just called his stuff “Gothic Music”. Since then he’s changed his branding, but the original song I first found remains. Regardless, this song was something that was playing during several “key” moments in my life. The use of the inverted commas is because these moments didn’t really play any real part in my life. I didn’t have a revelation, I didn’t hit a milestone I wanted to achieve, however they are moments that I will always remember.
One moment goes back to a holiday I went on when I was 15. I was in the Dominican Republic, I cannot remember the name of the hotel, but it was all inclusive, and as such it had several bars all around the complex. It was night time, and I decided to go for a stroll through the complex, and I sat at one of the bars, staring out over the sea, and listening to that song. There was nothing momentous about this moment, but I remember it just being so perfect, as nothing else mattered, no stresses of life, no thoughts to worry me, it was just me and the music. This moment is something I don’t believe I could ever feel again even if I was sitting in the same place at the same time with the same song on.
And this is the reason I wanted to write this post. There are a few other moments just like this one in different places, however the general idea of the moment is the same. Recapturing these moments, reliving them again is something I think about, and wish I could do on a regular basis, however I don’t believe it to be something that is possible. Even if I travelled back in time to that exact point, I don’t think it would help.
What I want to get across is that these memories are special, and act as something like a “happy place”, somewhere you can always g back to in your mind to feel content and cheer yourself up. However don’t stress yourself over aiming to recreate the exact scenario in which the memory was formed. Moments like these come from places you least expect, and they are something you can never really prepare for or predict happening. When one comes along, and it will, cherish it, and remember it, however don’t get hung up on the idea of it. So many people often worry about the moments in the past, they can end up missing future moments. I don’t really have a solid way to conclude this, so all I can simply say is try to enjoy life, and when you look back, the good is what you will remember, and that will make it all the sweeter.